one-week-holiday..

"happy holiday!"
that's what my chemistry teacher greeted me just now..
phew..finally..can have some rest..but who knows ..my holiday is cramped with tonnes of works again..life goes on..sigh..oh ya..about the debate..our team was the winner..nothing special..life goes on..have learned something from it..not bad..
wanna have a retreat la..quiet,stress-free lifestyle..need a good rest...maybe not long..but as least..you know..one whole day don't have to do anything tedious..just enjoy life..enjoy the sunshine..if possible..the ocean salty smell..waves hitting the rocks..reddish orange sunset..
sigh..m daydreaming ..don't have to bother me now..don't try to interrupt my dream now..just give me five min of having a temporary good rest..Lol..
m going to attend a camp in bidor..as a helper..hope can learn something from it also..and m going to watch arsenal-manchester-united match..on 29 aug..hope everything will be fine when i'm watching this match..really hope that the ceiling wont get torn when arsenal scores goals..kaka..somebody..remember to behave yourself in people's house..kaka..
I'm ready..holiday..

To be or not to be..

today was a "surprise surprise" day..M again stuck in this dim-lighted and warm digital library..haven't taken my lunch..sorry to God..i starved myself again..but anyway..I
know it's not a good habit..but you know..humans tend to commit sin everyday..Dilemma ni..

okie,come back to my topic today..surprises..it's like this..I have been appointed to be the President of English Language Society..Is it a blessing ..kaka..or a curse..wu..sigh..in short,it means one more responsibility is with me now..and..you know..it's a..kinda heavy one..and another surprise is ..er..mmm..cant be announced publicly now..I'm told not to tell anyone about this surprise before the right time comes..so be patient ya..kaka..mm..but now..i feel like..my shoulder is kinda heavy..many many things to do..many many roles to play..many responsibilities to bear..that's why..M now wondering..should i decline that second surprise..that's why..to be or not to be..this second surprise is
kinda..attractive..alluring..tempting..mm..

but still..hehe..I've made up my mind..I know what should my life priority be..nothing is more important than Him..fame,authority,riches in the world..they're here today ...but gone tomorrow..ya..that surprise may look good for me..it helps me to gain more respect and reputation..many ppl may think that i'm very capable..i'm an all-rounded student..but..still..how ppl look at me..not important..it's how God looks at me..that realy cares..so..hehe..I know what to be now,how abt u?live your life for God or for the world?
I choose God..becoz He's my Father..Amen..

P.s i love you..

m kinda emo now..wanna cry..but no tears flow from my eyes..mayb it's because my eyes have become so tired ard..no more tears for me to cry..

listening to the man who cant be moved now..the lyrics of this song..kinda unbelievable,dramatic..excuse me??camp in sleeping bag?not gonna move?but somehow or rather..it touched my heart..deep down to the bottom..of my heart..

i'm not a good gal..last time did many cruel things to many guys..used to leave them when they thought that it's almost time for me to accept them..be their gf..but..evrytime..when that time came..i would leave them..ya..coz I know..they are not the chosen one..not the correct one..but this brought lots of pain to them..sorry ya..to all of you..who have been hurt by me..

this time..dun wanna do this cruel thing again..hope i dun have to..this time..shud b d right one..cant afford to get wrong again..my heart grows realy fatigued d..have realy put in effort n m realy serious this time..

he has introduced one movie for me to watch..P.s i love you..mayb u can have a watch on it oso..

Get sick again..

Get sick again..
I hate being sick..

But dunno why..every month..for sure there'll be two or three days..or sometimes even a week..of being sick..

kinda fed up to go and "visit" the clinical doctors again..every month will pay them around 30 something ..just to buy those bitter-until-wanna-vomit medicines..you know what..I hate eating pills..hate drinking coughing solution(oh God,this is d worst)..hate drinking chinese herbs med oso..hate taking med la..argh..

but this time..I try not to hate them..try to "love" them..in the sense that..you know..I ate all the med..(even the blacky bitter+salty coughing solution)..'cause..dun wan to see everyone worry for me..my parents..pity my dad..He was so anxious for d whole day yesterday..my mum..boiled all sorts of wierd-tasted yet "healthy"(that's d word my mum said) chinese herbs solution for me to drink..And even my siblings..they are very concerned abt my health condition as well..like my little bro..last night he came to my room just to check whether i was slepin anot..and..you know what..kaka..that time i was chatting happily with isaiah on the phone..kaka..

i think..I've to really take good k of myself..cant be lik last time...mmm..those who are close to me will know this..that..I have the tendency to..you know..abuse my body..mmm..I did a small prayer yesterday..asking Him to give me the strength and the will to love and take good care of my body..mmm..

and..wanna say thank you to those who have been prayin for my health since the moment they know that I am sick..thank you very much..and..thanks ya,you-know-who -you-are..sorry for making you worry all this while..thanks a lot ya..

everyone..take good care of your body ya..it's the living temple of God...it's given by Him..

Praise the Lord!

"Praise the Lord! Praise the Lord! Let the earth hear His voice;
Praise the Lord! Praise the Lord! Let the people rejoice .. "

Do you know about this song? This song right..I will start singing this song whenever I receive good news or "grace" from people..I was in the school just now..And..hehe..Our team won in the debate competition(though it's only quarter-final,still have a long way to go)..But still you know..Like what I said in my last blog..It's my first ever time to be in a English debate..And you know..God is so gracious to me..I was the Best Speaker in that round..Waoh..Do you know how much it meant for me..this title..

I thank God..that..I have found back the treasure..the confidence..ya..it's my treasure..I lost it during that darkest time in my life..But Praise the Lord!! I've managed to find it back..Thanks for everyone who have been praying for me all this while also..Thanks a lot ya..

Wu..today got piles of homework to do again..Sigh..And guess what??Today I had my first chemistry practical class..hehe..Have to wear lab white coat..But you know..my size..the coat is just too big for a "s-sized" gal like me..blek..

Next week will have the semi-final and final rounds..Hope everything will be fine..and..will use this treasure well..cherish it a lot..Thanks ya..Father..for you have loved me so
much..and have given the treasure..back to me..

Gaining back ..my lost treasure..

Have I told you all before that..I am currently a form six student??kaka..hope everyone knows this..Guess what..I am in my school's digital library..Gosh..feel kinda embarrassed also..Coz ..after studying for nearly two months in this new Malay school..now only I know there's a digital library in this place..tomorrow
will have the first English debate competition..and..kaka..it's my first time to participate in ENG debate(used to be a Chinese debater)..Know why I wanna volunteer myself to join in this kind of contest which needs a lot of preparation??mmm..

I have lost one of my treasure after suffering from that trauma..ya..a huge and kinda devastating trauma to my life..to my ego..kaka..And these few months,I have found out that I have lost this treasure..which meant a lot to me and have brought a lot of happiness and pride for me last time..I hope ..through this contest..I can gain back this treasure..I don't wanna lose it..It's too hard to live without this treasure..

mmm..anyone..who is reading my blog now..plz pray for me ya..that I will be able to find it back and never let it go..The treasure..

This treasure..comes from Him..It belongs to Him..
May the glory and victory brought by this treasure go to the One and the Only one..Amen..

Patience+Love=Long Suffering

patience+love=long suffering
I learnt this so called " equation" from a Sunday sermon from my church elder few years ago..
Many unpleasant incidents occured this few weeks..
Know what?
i failed in my physics (expected)..but that's another unexpected gift coming together..
Guess what..
Failed in my maths also..
12 marks..lowest in d class..
Was so embarrassed when I took d paper from my math teacher..sigh..
then d physics one..even more shameful..
Got 0 mark..ya..zero..
gosh..wanna kill myself d..
then suddenly this " equation" came into my mind..patience+love = long suffering..
Ya..I shudn't play temper with him.. shud hav control myself from throwing all my feelings to him without thinking for his feeling..shud be patient in accepting the truth..M sorry ya..
mm..but still He's gracious..He sent all His angels to me..my family..my frenz..my boy..
Thanks ya..for all of u who are alwy there for me..carrying my burden with me..
phew..many things to do ni..but..dun give up ya..we all add oil ya..add oil until can drive car ya..lolz..